Today I’m pleased to host a piece of flash fiction from fellow Holmfirth Writer Vincent Johnson.
First Time in Heaven (or ‘All in Love is Fair’?)
“Your first time?” she quizzes. He frowns, nonplussed.
“In Heaven?” she qualifies.
“Oh… yeah…. arrived yesterday.” Dazzled, he scans the fizzing mezzanines, crammed with leather-queen torsos and transvestites gyrating to Dancing Queen. Strobes and disco mirror-ball shafts spear the kaleidoscope smoke, laced with poppers.
“Hello, I’m Fran…” she smiles pertly, extending a crimson-nailed hand.
He kisses her fingers, feigning courtesy, “Dom at your service…. Love the dress!”
“Thanks, darling…,” She lights two Players, proffering one, whispering suggestively, “…and ‘Dom’ by nature?”
He laughs wickedly, “Well now, looking for a good spanking are you, Fran?”
She arches her plucked eyebrows in mock shock, “Do I look like that sort of girl?” then narrows her eyes. “Is that a Yorkshire accent?”
Turns out they both grew up in Leeds and are now both escaping the macho straitjacket of northern pubs, flat caps, and working men’s clubs. They retreat to chat in a quieter, low-lit alcove.
“Love your eyes too,” says Dom, “They remind me of Cher…. and it’s weird but…. I feel like I know you already Fran.” They kiss, passionately and long. Then they talk at length of Yorkshire seaside outings, and picnics in the Dales.
“So you’re married then?” asks Dom half rhetorically.
“Kind of… but in name only, and my wife didn’t have a clue about my transvestite life. I used to go to secret drag acts at the Hope and Anchor in Leeds. It was risky then…. still is, but at least for a few hours I felt I could be myself. In the end I couldn’t stand the double life, and I was a crap dad and even worse as a husband. My wife was really unhappy too, and so I had to leave.”
Dom looks up from his beer, “You left your kids?”
Fran’s bloodshot eyes glisten as she dabs her mascara. “Yep, walked out. Left a letter explaining as best I could, and I still send money, but she doesn’t know where….”
“…You selfish bastard! What about your children?” Dom cuts in, indignantly, rising to his feet.
“Oh God…” Fran sobs, “I’m sorry I haven’t got time for this…” staring into the dark.
Dom looks down in dawning horror, “My dad, Frank walked out on us when I was 7-years old. I still remember that day, and how miserable we all were, how frightened. Mum said she couldn’t explain things, but everything was going to be all right, and one day we’d understand. For years we all thought he’d come back. And now here we are, and I know why I know your voice…. I’ve got to go.”
In shocking synchronous recognition, Frank reaches across the table, spilling their beer, frantically grabbing Dom’s forearm, “Oh God it’s you, it’s you…. I’m sorry, I’m sorry Dominic? I’m such a failure….” Recoiling, Dom tears himself away, wanting to expunge that lingering, fag-riddled kiss, and shuddering with tears. He is desperate to escape a thudding fear of abandonment, and Cher singing All in Love is Fair.